how do you express condolences to someone whose dad has passed away? "i'm so sorry" seems so lame and useless. he's handling it so well. he says it's b/c he expected his dad to die a few weeks ago when he'd gone to greece to say good-bye, and plus he's been sick for over 10 years. but i'm just like, still... now he's really gone. losing a parent is pretty much my biggest fear. i don't usually think about it, but i know our parents are no longer young, and w/ each of my own birthday celebrations, it occurs to me that my parents are also aging. i know the day that i will be parent-less will inevitably come, but i can't even imagine such a great loss. eek. sometimes i feel guilty for not visiting my parents enough. like this month, i still called them every sunday, but gopooh and i didn't go for our monthly friday night sushi, and i didn't really feel guilty. i was too busy doing my stupid 14-hour night shifts, so when friday nights came around i just wanted to lounge around close to home. i was totally antisocial. the only time i went out w/ friends was one thursday for dinner, and i snuck that in while i was on call. but then this guy's dad died, and it made me re-evaluate. i mean, i shouldn't get so preoccupied w/ the daily grind that the ppl in my life come second. i've always believed that you can't be happy if work is the only thing that keeps you going, and i never want to be one of those ppl who spends more time at work than at home b/c there's no reason to do otherwise. even at work, the reason the ppl my year loved last year was b/c we had each other. if i didn't have them, work would be just that: work. ppl are more important. so i'm going to be better about seeing my parents, even if it's just for monthly sushi take-out.
Tuesday, October 24, 2006
gopooh and i finally had our engagement pictures taken yesterday afternoon trampling through the arb in ann arbor. it sucked that the weather was so bad, but i guess ultimately it doesn't really matter. the session was just for us. i think most ppl use those pictures for save-the-date cards or magnets, but given the proximity to our wedding, we hadn't planned on that. i'd actually wanted to do the shoot a little earlier so the weather would be slightly warmer, but between our schedules and our photographer's schedule, that just couldn't be arranged. posing for pictures was kinda awkward though. i mean, we have plenty of pictures but they're just from restaurants or vacations, taken either by friends/family or random ppl on the street. w/ those it's pretty obvious that you're s'posed to look into the lens and smile. but our photographer shoots weddings as a photojournalist, so we were kinda like... do we keep smiling? are we s'posed to DO smthg?... haha. it's not like a wedding, where everyone's naturally smiling and hugging and all that. so it'll be interesting to see how our awkward pictures came out. :p
Sunday, October 15, 2006
gopooh is a dork. on friday he came home from work bearing 2 dozen red roses. i was like, hmmm two dozen? usually i just get one dozen when it's for no reason, so i was confused as to why he'd gotten them! turns out "sweetest day" since we couldn't be guaranteed to celebrate yesterday, w/ my being on home call and all. i'd obviously known it was coming up, but i didn't know the exact date, so i blindly assumed that he knew what he was doing. i felt guilty for not getting him a card or smthg. all weekend he kept jokingly going, "well who got whom a sweetest day surprise, and who forgot, huh???" then today after scouting out the site of our engagement pictures, he suddenly said, "i'm an idiot. you know why?" i was like, "well... there are so many reasons..." :p and that's when he said sweetest day is NEXT weekend. *gasp* he'd been flipping through the grocery coupons and there were all these advertisements for sweetest day specials. haha! oooh he is in such big trouble for making me feel guilty for 'forgetting!'